that is the worst part.

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i don’t even know!

this week has been a rollercoaster of emotion, and way to early of mornings O_o

i have never worked harder for something in my life. 

i have been planning away and i hope things go as i am hoping! 

i’ll probably be devastated if they don’t..

*crosses fingers* 

<3 

honestly the worst weekend of my life. i am so hurt.

Number one. Couple who have been dating for five minutes and call each other “babe” and “omg i lovee you best three minute boyfriend of my life”
Number two. Touch screens. Yeah so theyre hightech, who really gives two shits? You all know theyre terrible and cause finger insecuries and give your fingers bdd. Noones finger is realistically that small. Unless your a fetus.
Number three. The fact that people can know you so well, yet know nothing about you.
Number four. I dyed my hair really awesome and it has absolutely nothing to do with this post.
Number five. How long it took me to write this post on my really super cool touchscreen… O_o
If theres any typos….blame my obese fingers, they’ll be starving themselves over in the corner.

i really am sick of putting 100% into something, that you only put maybe 50% into.

i am last on you’re list and last on your mind.

it’s just not that easy for me to do that to you, and i don’t understand how you could do it to me..constantly, probably without even knowing.

its like a teeter totter and i’m tired of always pushing off.

if you didn’t want people to know, you shouldn’t have done it.

simple as that. honestly.

YOUR CRUSH:

  Thomas, my longterm crush:P Hahah you are the sweetest boy in the world and i love you, you never fail to make me laugh! i always try to understand what your going through and i know you always try to understand me too(: i love doing the randomest things with you and all the intelligent conversations we have together and the silly times too! i can have the funnest time with you just sitting around and thats the best! i’m going to have to write you a ‘letter’ again for this thing again at some point so i’m stopping now! hahah xoxox

-me (:

i have no patience and i can’t time these out day to day thats just way to long, soooo…

Moma and Daddy:

moma, You are my bestfriend and i will never love someone as much as i love you (..and daddy) You both are my heros. i can’t imagine having anyone but you for a mother, you are seriously my dream mom, even when you cackle…hahah, i love that we can have two second fits of rage and then end it with..so you want some cookies? or some other really peaceful sweet gesture, we are THE best. i love that you and daddy are older parents and have all the wisdom in the world to give me, and lived tour lives to the fullest before having me so that you both could give me the attention you thought i deserved! although it does scare me that either of you could pass away sooner than other parents which fuels my desire to stay near you both as long as i can. we both know i’d be fine on my own but i’ve watched you both lose your parents and its the most heartbreaking thing in the world, and it makes me tear up when i even think of losing either of you. i want my kids to know and love you both the way i grew up being so close to my Yaya and Papoo, as well as Nanny and Poppy. Daddy, i can’t wait to show you that i can live up to my ‘great white hope’ reputation you have of me, and to have you at my college graduation, to dance with you at my wedding, and for you to be there for my future kids births! i’m so happy that we have grown so much closer over the past year especially and i can finally talk to you the way i’ve always been able to talk to mom! (: You are the most important people in my life and i’m happy i was blessed enough to be your miracle baby!! xooxox

-Me (:

Bef Frand,

you are my favorite person on this planet (: i will never get sick of you, even when i am…hahahah i love that we are completely open with each other and i don’t have to hide anything we feel and we just straight up tell each other when the other ones being stupid, or when we’re being cool. Way to go, You! hahah i can’t even write a letter about how much i love you, because it can only be expressed though our awkward stares and random engulfing hugs! xoxox

  - Me (:

Also, Camille!

You and i have always remained so close since 6th! we are literally exactly the same, and total opposites at the same time(: its great, and i love you! you truely are one of my very best friends and i appreciate you for being who you are all the time and not conforming to what anyone wants you to be just to fit in!  xoxox

- Me…again(: